1 year plus!

bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

i year has passed since i started housemanship.
1 year plus  about 2 weeks actually.
i dont want to complaint about housemanship...
it's just a wonder...
i have gone through a year... :D

one year of so many things that had happened.
did i change?
i dont know...
maybe yes? maybe no?
but..
i've learned some things.
not musch.
some things only.

and the bad thing is..
selepas setahun lebih ini..
saya masih berharap...
that a miracle will happen.
although...
i think the chances are nearly nil?
that's why..
i need to go away..
that's what i plan to do..
but i dont know...
things rarely goes as i planned/hoped for..

hantarkan

because i cannot say it

hopefully, it will be send

by some way or another..

in two days time...
silently....

happybirthday.

  

kabur

supposedly, dah dekat sangat nak habis 1st posting ni..
tapi sekarang.. semua blur
nothing that i can see clearly

i'm dreading to go back there...
rasa mcm tak nak blk sana...
nak duduk rumah je..
nak berhenti kerja..

i try no to feel anxious and depress at home..
tapi... selalu je dia datang ganggu
dgn kemungkinan2 yang ada...
blm blk sana dah rindu rumah.
macam mana ni?

umi kata...
yakin pada Allah.
Allah dah rancang yg paling baik.
kalau kene extend ke... tak apa..
hajar jgn stress.. buat je kerja hajar.
yang pnting hajar dgn patient.
jangan kisah orang lain.
memang kita tak nak kena extend
tapi kalau Allah dah tetapkan itu untuk kita...
kita kena yakin.
jangan tension. tak apa.

*cry a river* T_T
*nangis je bila umi ckp*

Ya Allah...... permudahkanlah..

Hamba

Bukan sengaja duka menggenggam tangis
Bukan juga kerana terpaksa
Ternyata,
Kedukaan adalah hamba
yang sujudnya mengair mata.

*silabertabahdankuat!*
*rinduabahumimayamsebahmamadaiesyahasmakareemah*